Subspace
& Pain; One Submissive's Experience
Author: Krysannia © |
This is a topic I really
enjoy discussing... because its a place I really love to go and can at
the drop of a word.....Subspace is different for everyone..some go high..
where we call flying..some have OOB(out of body expereinces) some just
dissassociate with it.. then some like me just keep getting endorpohins
pumped out that eventually even though we are *there* can hear everything
being said.. can rspond only with intense effort.. but feel literally
nothing except whats going on inside my body...then of course there is
what I call general subpsace.. I'll try to describe what it is to me.
But how to describe it..thats tricky....General subspace....
for me it can be when he grasps the back of my hair and twists it in
his hand tilting my head to the side... giving me that *Dom* look..
I feel instantly wet.... everything around me fades away and only his
voice and his eyes penetrate my brain.. my legs grow weak its hard to
stand.. I usually wobble (5 inch heels and standing and this arent
a good match) but he holds me with the other arm around my waist. He
says my eyes change... they go from emerald green to to a deep
rich blue green color..and they glaze my mouth slackens.. my body relaxes
into his.. and he knows thats the start of my descent into my space.
If we are in public he makes sure I am sitting down when he does this..
WHy? cuase when he turns me loose standing I fall directly into
kneel up position.. cause everything Dissassociaiton--to go to antoher place like a meadow etc. somewhere safe where your not really attached to what is going on in the room. OOB- its when you are standing outside yourself watching what is happeneing in the room(an extreme and dangerous high) Flying-when the stimulation is so intense that everthing coming in is no longer felt as pain but just sheer ectasy..depending on how HIGH you get you are still there in the moment just maybe cant talk cause your speech is so slurred or you cant at all sometimes too high to orgasm or you go into multiple uncontrollable orgasms and the stimulation comes from within yourself. I have done all three at some point in time. Dissassociation- one time I was playing with a Dom..that watching watching where I was.. I was so high flying that when he started using a partiuclar brutal tool on me I couldnt respond back I was in severe pain, he wasnt watching my body reaction and mentally I shut down ...I left that room mentally...went to a safe place..a place of serenity and calm and gentlenes... I have no recall to this day of the last 1 and half hours of that scene. its your minds way of saying I cant cope take me away from here. OOB- once I was so high..flying out there... the endorphins pumping out so much into my body....that it created what we now know was a OOB for me.. a very dangerous HIGH and takes a very experienced Master and one trained in CPR and first aid to really deal with this kinda high to get you back safely. Or for you to want to come back safely. This was a particular scene we had discussed in advance.. it was a slow building combination session the intensity of the stimulation getting progressively harder and harder... at one point I was writhing and squirmng in multiple orgasms then I suddenly stopped moving he said.. I held position but was breathing deeply...VERY deeply deeper than he had ever seen me..I saw him go to the closet get the jump bag(medical bag) I wouldnt answer.. ..I was basically unconscious he . checked my pulse it was weak and thready..my eyes severely glazed and not tracking in the room (tracking-not following anything) just a low moan when he touched me.. He stopped realized I was in shock..and started shock measures.. I could see him doing all this.. I could describe exactly what he did the next day.. see I could not have describes anything to him. I was blindfolded the entire session. and it took me 7 hours to regain consciousness completely afterwards. He said after about an hour I would arouse enough to drink then slip back under ..after that I mostly moaned and writhed on and off.. he held me the entire time. Being closely monitored by him the entire time.. (helps who you know huh) the last Flying--- my FAVORITE!!!! ..I can only
describe this...the most recent scene with this. a few months
ago we went to a private play party. AS things wound down... there were
only 4 of us left two couples. John decided to wax me we hadnt done
that in a while... and the other couple wanted to watch *how* he did
it which is different than anyone else I have ever seen do it.
He started on my back... I just felt the warm *safe layer* he put down..(
he cupps the wax in his hand and spreads a layer first) then he started
waxing and I was so relaxed by it... I just started floating...hearing
eveything and everyone but just out there... then he turned me
over with the help of the other Dom (he didnt want to disturb my space
by a jerky awkward movement turning me) becasue I was beyond moving
myself.. he waxed my front and crotch.. I was spun..like *toasted* I
could see him his eyes..but couldnt respond verbally.. just nod..
Now I could hear everything being said in the room I
just couldnt respond verbally.. Joe started harder with the cane.. I
was moaning but not really jerking...he had John check me and when asked
if I was okay all I could do was a uh huh...but was so out there
I was just flying going higher and highger with every sensation or body
stroke I got. I wasnt feeling any pain at all.. just sheer pleasure..
Joe started caning harder and harder and I wasnt moving..wasnt flinching..
just a deep gluttural moan... and occasional head toss. and I stopped
responding verbally and stopped tracking him when he pulled up my head
I was ocmpletely lost in the sensation I was feeling and the endorophins
were wroking overtime... . I was too far out ..... my Dom said...
he knew where I was headed... he laughed and said no baby your not going
there tonight.. and they started with other types of stimulation. careressing
etc.. making me orgasm to bring me down enough to a safe level..to bring
me down a bit.. they would take me up and then bring me down a bit..
they kept me on the edge of OOB..and flying for a hour or more
that way. then finally my Dom decided I was It was a great night.... but I couldnt get down enough to dress myself.. the three of them dressed me and and the other Dom helped him get me to the car later.. and it was a cozy ride home. By then down enough to talk about it but not functioning real well.. my speech was still a bit slurred...my eyes glazed my body weak.. He always laughs and says I make the best loveable drunk for someone that doesnt drink. Its also the reason I not allowed to drive afterwards for several hours, I appear highgly intoxicated from all the endorpohins stillin my body. Okay thats what my subspace is like.. and what it is
to me. I hope that helps define it to others that havent gotten there
yet..or have been there but didnt know thats what it was. The only thing
I can say..a word of caution..is never let a Dom take you that high
that doesnt know how to bring you back down safely. Mine is trained
in CPR..and general first aid..and shock treatment. Playing at that
level takes time..and knowledge of the sub its not something you can
do on a first meeting play session. The Dom has to know you well enough
to know when to stop. And you have to be honest enough to forewarn them
thats where you go mentally.. and phsyically. once they learn your body
they know when to stop. There are very few Doms/Masters that will or
can play at this level or intensity. And I also beleive as a sub this
isnt something you find over night.. for me it took a long time to reach
these kinds hieghts in my submission...to be able to totally let
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