I Left With The Police Today
Author: Katsilks © 2004
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I left with the police today
Away from him, my Master J
The trail has been long and hard and cold
He doesn't want to let me go.
He told me he would make me pay
If I left him and went away
He spewed all the threats he felt
thinking I was fearing, but I never knelt
He uses me still for his own sadistic pleasure
Never allowing me to have my possessions
or take any leisure
or find repose in a new life without him
and for true, he makes my life quite grim.
I take what solace I can in this new place
Without leather on my skin or fire in my face
I ache for relief that subspace spins
I cry for reliving all that seems dim.
My soul wants to run and hide with him for one night
But that is not the answer to reclaiming my life.
I wish it were. I've done it before.
And each time I get further into the revolving door.
I want a guide to take me through this channel
I want direction and solace
But can I handle another relationship again?
Overwhelmed believing I can and can't.
Don't kid yourself. Abuse does exist
In even the people you meet on these lists.
More than you realize
More than you know
While secrecy and internet masks make many fall and go.